My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death.
— Matthew 26:38
Here in the field the sun sends out its ochre, shade in some patch of flowers, and soon warblers will sleep in the pear trees. How effortlessly night arranges itself, summons children from play, gathers owls and crickets to prepare like Saint Luke for penitent sinners. At dusk, when the angled moon rises, Anne, who calls herself Anguish, crosses the field. I am, she says, daughter of a dark meadow, lie down, hear night pushing into dirt, through goldenrod hear angels sighing, (and you must believe in angels for the god in the garden is alone.)
After Anne kneels down in the meadow, she weaves reeds into a crown. And I become Anne in the garden, glimpse a star, hanging like a face, which has wrinkles of an old woman, calling me daughter of a dark meadow. In pitches muffled like the wind our words are secrets too sad for the living.